never met my father and my mother tossed me on the street when i was three summers or so. having mixed blood children, let alone out of wedlock, was embarrassing for her. my elegant ears came at a premium you could say
the people i call family are those i've found along the way, and that suits me just fine.
[So that's what he really meant? That's almost a disappointment...]
oh i see! that sounds way more manageable if you have a kid in the house.
[He wants to tell Elliot the offer still stands but he feels like coming on too strong would push him away, maybe, and this is not an unpleasant conversation. He doesn't care much about his biological family.]
[Yeaaaah this is exactly why he didn't want to share his own past. Compared to a story like that, Elliot would feel like he's just whining about his situation.]
Jesus...I'm really sorry to hear that. I've known people who've been thrown out of their homes, but not that young. That's rough.
[oh my god Amal]
Yes, that's what I meant. My love life isn't nearly as interesting as whatever you were imagining, I'm afraid.
eh, it's fine. i wasn't alone-- there was an old lady who ran an orphanage, and she took care of us little ones. once i was old enough to roam a bit i found a different group and started to strike out on my own, that sort of thing.
i like myself the way i am. maybe it cost me a comfortable childhood, but i've always had the wanderlust. i'm an adventurer through and through.
[Listen, he knows a cutie when he sees one.]
haha!!!! forgive me for imagining then. it wouldn't be the first time i discovered a kitten was really a tiger behind closed doors~
[Elliot can't see it, but Amal is laughing. This is hilarious to him for some reason. He thinks that guy sounds like great fun. (Little does he know, he knew him!)]
where i'm from, some say that certain memories are etched upon the soul so deeply that they can't be truly erased
say you had a relatively settled, normal life here... as normal as you can call life here, anyway... and some guy appeared, and started saying he remembered you doing things you don't remember, in a life you don't remember living...
would you rather live your life not knowing anything about what might or might not have come before? or would you rather face the truth, even if it ends up being painful?
[Ah, this question. Well, it's easy enough for Elliot]
For me personally, I rather face the truth and get to the bottom of what's going on. Even if it hurts, you aren't really free if you're just covering your ears to reality.
Though I hope that guy would respect that this life of mine is also real. If they try to force me to be someone when that's not really who I am, we'll have problems.
i think so, too. but i don't want to make that decision for him either...
[Things are rarely so simple, and with Amal's own undeniable emotions wrapped up in this twice over, it's even worse. At least G'raha eventually called him out on his bullshit, but Alphinaud is still... new to all of this. And mostly unaware.]
on my world, we traveled together for years. we protected each other, we saved each other, we went through hells and back and lived to tell the tale
when he and his sister got disowned i almost started an international incident
[Congratulations, Elliot. This is probably the most open he's ever been with someone about the Alphinaud Situation.]
'hi, your past incarnation or whatever was basically my son' seems like a lot to put on a kid trying to get through university and adjust to life in a new town
[Elliot reads this and raises an eyebrow. Oh my god. Amal is an overprotective doting parent. ]
Uh, Amal? University students really aren't THAT young. I just graduated from university a month ago, and it's a very normal age to begin serving in the military and fighting in wars in this world.
In other words ... I think you're being a little overprotective?
[BLUNT]
If he's like me, he's already started to get memories. Just tell him that you knew him in another life, and then leave the decision up to him if he wants to know more.
Something tells me he'll react better than your anxieties are saying he will.
[PLOT TWIST OF THE YEAR RIGHT? Someone leaves him in charge of children?!]
oh
that's
i mean
he was like fifteen when i met him
i uh
i forgot he's probably... older... here...........
[Elliot's point still stands, though, and Amal knows it. Alphinaud is a dedicated and successful diplomat who once led an army (poorly, but it was important for character development)... A few college courses is nothing.]
i'm overthinking this again aren't i
i'll... try what you said. he's been reaching out. maybe he doesn't remember me now, but he probably will soon. i can't hide forever.
Maybe just a little. You sound like a protective parent.
But you're right, you can't hide forever. And the less time you spend hiding away from him, the better off things will go between you two. I know it can be really nerve-wracking, but sometimes you gotta put yourself out there when there's someone you care about.
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[He could see it.]
Well, I'm hoping it does! And tha-
[Oh wait. That is not a not a normal hand he's offering.
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....I don't think that'd help, but thank you.
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[LLLUUUUUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLL]
anytime!
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[honestly with that guy. He looks at why that caused a reaction and just-
Oh. That's embarrassing. ]
Oh, crap! I meant CBD. No wonder you were confused!
It's basically marijuana but with the parts that get you high taken out of it.
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the people i call family are those i've found along the way, and that suits me just fine.
[So that's what he really meant? That's almost a disappointment...]
oh i see! that sounds way more manageable if you have a kid in the house.
[He wants to tell Elliot the offer still stands but he feels like coming on too strong would push him away, maybe, and this is not an unpleasant conversation. He doesn't care much about his biological family.]
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Jesus...I'm really sorry to hear that. I've known people who've been thrown out of their homes, but not that young. That's rough.
[oh my god Amal]
Yes, that's what I meant. My love life isn't nearly as interesting as whatever you were imagining, I'm afraid.
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i like myself the way i am. maybe it cost me a comfortable childhood, but i've always had the wanderlust. i'm an adventurer through and through.
[Listen, he knows a cutie when he sees one.]
haha!!!! forgive me for imagining then. it wouldn't be the first time i discovered a kitten was really a tiger behind closed doors~
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[He just had to use a cat analogy didn't he. Also man]
What does that even-
2/2
A truly cursed one]
Welp! Hated that memory!
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[He likes cats. Well, cat-people, really...]
uh oh. do i want to know?
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I just had a memory from that other life. I was in a group bath and there was some guy telling me to take off my towel so he could see if-
[You know nevermind that detail]
What's even more awkward is I'm pretty sure I bought weed off that guy a few times in this lifetime.
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where i'm from, some say that certain memories are etched upon the soul so deeply that they can't be truly erased
i'm uh... sorry to hear it was that one
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Great, he left such an impression it scarred my soul.
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honestly, embarrassing memories are like that..... always popping up when you least need them
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Oh well, at least that's one upside to quitting weed. I won't have to look that guy in the face again...
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... actually
can i ask you about your opinion on something?
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sorry for the three week long cliffhanger
would you rather live your life not knowing anything about what might or might not have come before? or would you rather face the truth, even if it ends up being painful?
its fine i waited for kh3
For me personally, I rather face the truth and get to the bottom of what's going on. Even if it hurts, you aren't really free if you're just covering your ears to reality.
Though I hope that guy would respect that this life of mine is also real. If they try to force me to be someone when that's not really who I am, we'll have problems.
LMFAOOOOOO
[Things are rarely so simple, and with Amal's own undeniable emotions wrapped up in this twice over, it's even worse. At least G'raha eventually called him out on his bullshit, but Alphinaud is still... new to all of this. And mostly unaware.]
on my world, we traveled together for years. we protected each other, we saved each other, we went through hells and back and lived to tell the tale
when he and his sister got disowned i almost started an international incident
[Congratulations, Elliot. This is probably the most open he's ever been with someone about the Alphinaud Situation.]
'hi, your past incarnation or whatever was basically my son' seems like a lot to put on a kid trying to get through university and adjust to life in a new town
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Uh, Amal? University students really aren't THAT young. I just graduated from university a month ago, and it's a very normal age to begin serving in the military and fighting in wars in this world.
In other words ... I think you're being a little overprotective?
[BLUNT]
If he's like me, he's already started to get memories. Just tell him that you knew him in another life, and then leave the decision up to him if he wants to know more.
Something tells me he'll react better than your anxieties are saying he will.
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oh
that's
i mean
he was like fifteen when i met him
i uh
i forgot he's probably... older... here...........
[Elliot's point still stands, though, and Amal knows it. Alphinaud is a dedicated and successful diplomat who once led an army (poorly, but it was important for character development)... A few college courses is nothing.]
i'm overthinking this again aren't i
i'll... try what you said. he's been reaching out. maybe he doesn't remember me now, but he probably will soon. i can't hide forever.
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But you're right, you can't hide forever. And the less time you spend hiding away from him, the better off things will go between you two. I know it can be really nerve-wracking, but sometimes you gotta put yourself out there when there's someone you care about.
I'll be rooting for you!
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i appreciate your help!
if there's anything you need, don't be afraid to call on me. i mean it
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[What with getting rid of that weed and all!]
Thanks Amal, I appreciate it! You're a really good guy.
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oh
i'm not... not really...
but i'm happy you think so
[This is about as close to blushing over text as he can get.]
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